Sometime on Tuesday morning, I'm going in for a robotic prostatectomy. That sounds pretty cold. There's obviously all of the side effect concerns. Mostly, as a very active man, I'm concerned about being weak and incapacitated. I know that considering the alternative that sounds pretty trivial but it isn't. Up until now I've been able to avoid the label of old man - to my face anyway. If I'm hobbling, can't get up, play with my kids, work exercise, make love to my wife, I'm going to feel ancient.
So while everyone else is worried about recurring cancer, incontinence, etc. I'm worried about feeling ancient. It does sound trivial in the grand order of things but the hardest to deal with are not necessarily logical.
The irony, as most know - early on there are no symptoms, I feel fine. So I'm not looking forward to pain, catheter etc. I wish this thing had a spell checker. Oh it does, I'm new to this site. CATHETER is giving me nightmares.
If anyone reads this, I'm happy to keep up the chatter as I go forward but mostly I'm doing it to just get some of this stuff off of my chest. Believe me, I've spent plenty of time in research, interviewing the surgeon, others who have had robotic and other forms of treatment. I know what I'm getting into, I'm just not happy about it and I really don't feel like laying any of this on my family who is already anxious.
Oh BTW, I'm not really good at being sick and taking it easy. More later.
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